And it's been a while

Yep, it's been a while.  I didn't know if I would ever come back to blogging until yesterday when I got an update notification for the blogger app on my ipad.  And mainly I didn't know if or when I would come back because I don't really take many pictures anymore.  Or birdwatch.  Or go on roadtrips.  Or do anything I used to love doing.

There have been a lot of changes in my life.  For one, I am no longer in a relationship.  It was a long time coming and it's better this way.  A lot of changes going on at work, which I'm not going to get into.  I am also broke.  So I have to move back in to my parents' place when they return from Belgium next month.  I had to rehome Echo because I can't take him with me, he is with a lovely couple now who fell madly in love with him the second they met him.  So that was heartbreaking.  I cried non stop for days.  On day number 3 I seriously wondered how it was possible to still have so many tears left.  But I know he's with a good family who will love him as much as I do.  

So moving in with my parents will allow me to pay off debt, then save up for a down payment for a condo, which really, is a great thing.  I never want to have to waste my money and pay someone rent ever again.  But I feel like I'm losing so much in the process.  However it needs to be done.  So no buying camera equipment, no ridiculous spending, no travelling.  The latter is what is getting to me the most because to me, travelling = happiness.  I had to cancel two trips, one for this year and one for next year.  European trip and a middle eastern trip.  So yeah, it stings.

I strongly believe that everything happens for a reason; my parents moving back to Canada couldn't be happening at a better time.  And I have met some people recently who have come into my life at the right time also, because they are truly helping me heal when everything seems to be crashing down. 

And I know it's all temporary, but it's still really getting to me.  I've been feeling so down lately, I don't feel like doing much.  So I am making a point to put a bit of money aside for this summer and do a few new activities, to keep my sanity.  I'm used to be moving constantly.

I DO take photos at times, with my phone.  I just snap a picture then put a filter on it.  Nothing complicated because right now I can't handle anything complicated.  Or that requires effort.  Which, to me, is very sad.

I just can't seem to want to do the things I normally enjoy doing.  So this summer I will be doing a few activities I have never done before.  So we'll see how that goes.

I know this post is kinda depressing.  Kinda like how I've been feeling lately.  I just keep telling myself (because I really do know this) that it's all temporary.  I will fall back on my feet eventually.

:)

Boredom

So I haven't been very productive lately. My camera is pretty much collecting dust and I've been hibernating at home. Boring! I don't know if I have the winter blues or what but things need to change. Now if I could stick to this instead of being a lazy couch potato XD I've mainly been playing games on the computer, listening to music, trying out new recipes and spending an incredible amount of time on pinterest.com.

Speaking of music, I've recently only found out about Florence + The Machine, I'm not sure why I hadn't heard of them before, what a voice! So original, so lovely.

So good, that's basically all I've been listening to for the past 2 weeks.

The weather's been messed up this winter, temperatures much higher than normal, warm one day and freezing the next. Most snow storms we've had were immediately followed by freezing rain then rain. I bet we'll be having an early spring. Which really bites since I haven't been snowshoeing once this year, boooo. But hey, early spring isn't a bad thing either :)

As for photography, baaaahhh. I just haven't gotten around to taking pictures much, since I finished my 365 project I don't carry my cam everywhere any more. Maybe I should be. I think I just need to work with something new. Or just take a photography course. I just keep getting discouraged so easily, maybe a course would be refreshing.

Hmmm.....

I did take a few shots back in November of an abandoned house, I should post about it next time :)

Wisdom Teeth

I got my wisdom teeth removed on Wednesday, not fun. What an experience, lol. Yay for laughing gas! I could slightly feel the surgeon pulling at my teeth but I really didn't care ;) My mouth is still very sore, I can't wait to get back to normal. I did get chipmunk cheeks, which was pretty funny. I took a picture for my little brother, who probably can't wait to make fun of me, but there is no chance that I'll be posting it on here, haha!

I've been home for 5 days now, I've been mostly reading, playing games on the computer and listening to music. And complaining about my sore face. I've been reading the Sword of Truth series by Terry Goodkind, very good story. Very morbid, sadistic and just "Wow! I can't believe he actually wrote that, that's sick!!" but very good.

I finished the second out of eleven (I think?) books in french not long ago, but since I'd like to start reading epubs instead of paperback I've switched to english, so I started reading the first book again. I'm glad I did since the terminology is very different in both languages.

I've been listening to Hol Baumann's "Human" for the past two days, so good. He reminds me a lot of Trentemoller, which I am madly in love with. Yay for good music! :)

Sean's the one who told me about him, I'm glad he did.

And since I've had so much time on my hands, I'm been watching Les Moomins (Mumintroll in Sweden), in french, of course. Whenever I don't feel good I tend to watch my favorite cartoons/movies I used to love as a kid. Ok maybe not always when I don't feel good, but those are the times when I enjoy it the most :) Moomins are little trolls, the books were published in Finland. It was eventually made into a tv show. So cute (:

Well it's time for soup (ugh), thanks for visiting :)